Summer Vacation

It sure ain't what is used to be. I remember summer vacation being all fun and games for me. Well, now I konw that it was not all fun and games for my mom, especially if I drove her half as nuts as my darling daughter is driving me. She is bored and can never find a thing to do with herself. All she wants is to watch tv

Parenting again

Growing up I always assumed that being a parent would be an easy thing to accomplish until my child/children reached puberty and that "rebellious" phase. I couldn't have been more wrong.

Riana is "spirited" at the very least and suffering from ADHD or something else at the most. We are committed to seeing her through all that troubles her and making her well - but it is an UPHILL battle. And there are times that this sweet little girl turns this house into one that sounds like a roller-coaster with her screaming and tantruming. I am learning how to deal with these tantrums and basically to ignore them until she behaves appropriately - but it isn't easy.

For the rest of the world she is a very sweet and well mannered child. We are complimented on her bevahior often. Which makes me feel good, but inwardly I still know how she behaves.

It seems to be about control with her - she wants to make the decisions about everything - and if she doesn't make the decision - well, it is tantrum city.

As I said we are working on it - and someday with all the nurturing, affection and love we are capable of she will work through these issues and the child the rest of the world sees - we will see at all times.....

Manic Mornings

Every morning here is a struggle to get Riana ready for school - she argues with me at every turn and creates simple chaos - although we have a simple to follow routine there are mornings that you can just tell the routine is in jeopardy and today was one of them. It makes me wary of being a stay at home mom for the entire summer. We have started some counseling though and I am positive it will help Riana work through whatever issues she is having.

My book is published

Buy it here

MY COVER HAS ARRIVED

Here is the official cover for Mohican Lake... I am beside myself with pleasure

La Pensee

Riana has her open house for La Pensee tonight. Russell most likely won't be going with us as he is working on the other side of the state today. I would like him to be there, but it seems his job keeps him from a lot of the things that I deem important to the family.

I have also contacted a place to get Riana set up in counseling as I really think that she needs it and I am hoping that it will help her relationships with everyone, not just the animosity she feels towards me.

Neglecting My Blog

I have once again gotten so wrapped up in absolutely nothing that I have been ignoring my blog. Mohican Lake is waiting for it's cover-art to come in from PA and the wait is nearly killing me. But I do have a few random thoughts about those things that are driving me crazy.....

How can I learn to have paitence in all aspects of my life, when it was once of the virtues I was born without......

How can I be a great and effective parent to a child who does not care, or have the slighest regard for anything I say....

How can we teach this child to become an upstanding member of society.....

How can a foster parent help but fall in love with a baby they have nurtured from their release from the hospital, especially when said child could be going back to their bio parents.........

Are depression, medicinal eating, binge eating and anxiety the cause of my health/weight problems - or are my weight problems the casue of my depression, medicinal and binge eating and anxiety.....hmmmmmmmmm